*Warning: This post contains a "Debbie Downer" moment. Read at your own risk.*
I go back to work tomorrow to begin another year of teaching...
This time last year, I was sitting in front of my computer typing this.
This year...
I don't really have as much to say...
I feel blessed to have my job--a calling that I know God placed on my heart. But it is always so hard to leave Lydia Grace. A summer as a SAHM never seems like enough. This--leaving her--never seems to get easier either. I honestly feel like I fail her as a mother when I go back to work. So many moms work, though, and I find myself wondering why I have such a hard time with it. Why do I feel so guilty? I don't really expect an answer to that. I am just throwing my feelings out into bloggy land because if I were to say how I really feel out loud...
I may start to cry. Just being real with you tonight, friends. I hope that is okay...
I know God sees me where I'm at though. If he wants me to continue to serve him through teaching, I know he will also comfort me as I leave my own precious girl in the care of someone else during the day.
It's been a wonderful summer. And there will be many more summers to come.
May you have the strength you need for these next few weeks until you are home with Two beautiful babies.
ReplyDeleteAww, this post makes me sad for you. I know that you are listening to God's direction in your life. I hope that he makes a way for you to stay at home with your babies if that would ultimately be the best thing.
ReplyDeleteSending you a big warm hug right now.
ReplyDeleteGod does need you to teach and I know that you touch the lives of so many children each year!
Praying for peace and comfort for you you.
Hope you have a good first day back ;)
Biz
So sorry friend. Just a few short weeks and you will have some time off with TWO precious babies! You are one of the best mommies I know, you could never fail Lydia Grace. She is one lucky little girl. The summers are not long enough, and they never will be BUT you absolutely make the most of them by finding ways for Lydia to have fun every single day! Praying for peace for you!
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